Published in · 5 min read · Mar 14, 2021
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It was time for Me to be Honest with Myself
My Love for Justice is set in stone. It is indefinitely a part of my being. I believe in humanity as heartbreaking as it feels and continues to function. Although the justice system is not just and more so a screwed unfair system that marginalizes people colored in the worst ways possible. Being black and woman in a biased, racist, fascist, and unreasonable system, still, that hope resides in me that hopefully, is in all of us to see all crimes judged equally regardless of race. Then again, who am I fooling? Besides myself, no one. On the other hand, it doesn’t hurt to dream that the justice system would one day be just that-the justice system.
Personally, I have a heart for lawyers. Specifically, public defenders, civil rights, and family because they fight for those who cannot do it for themselves. I would never come against that. This write-up is more about perspectives gained, self-awareness, and the self-development that I am finally willing to embrace at this moment in my life.
· Overwhelming Pressure and Mental Stress- I found that there is very little room for mistakes in the legal field as a Paralegal. Time is critical for the Attorney, therefore it is critical for the Paralegal just the same. Everything is about dates and deadlines. Pleadings, motions, hearings, and all things in between have a deadline and crucial weight is on the Paralegal to correctly prepare the Attorney for trial. Making mistakes especially on client files could dictate the flow of court. I found myself always overthinking because I never wanted to mess up any client's file by missing information. Furthermore, the Paralegal and Attorney relationship is not what many believe it to be because the demand levels are so high that the bonding level becomes low. I say this because I observe and notice due to lawyers being under high levels of stress, it many times carries over to the paralegal in such a stringent form. The attorney is acting this way to make sure the Paralegal is dotting every “I” and crossing every “T”. The strict management usually stays this way, even after the Paralegal has proven themselves. Respectfully, this is the part that burns me out because we are both under…
